To those few who are following this blog, my apologies for yet another new beginning. I just haven’t hit a level of honesty and insight-fulness with this thing that appeals to me. So once again, hello. My name is Greg. I’m writing a blog about… about… well, myself, being a middle-aged, middle-class (by the skin of my teeth) white guy living in the middle of America. Though I have little to show for it, I’ve been a photographer since high school years, and I’ve dabbled around the periphery of art for a long time.
Though photography is a technology-laden art form, I grow tired of thinking of it in those terms. I do believe that to be a photographer, you have to find a process that enthuses you, that feeds your heart. For some, that’s slow photography– darkroom, silver gelatin, large format or some derivative of historical processes. For others, it’s the latest digital technology and megapixels, always stepping up into the next newest thing. And everything in between.
I think photography has always been a very liquid and moving platform, always on the edge of technology. As a cash-strapped young lad, and now a cash-strapped old guy, I could rarely be on the cusp of the latest offerings. I’ve spent the last couple of years with one foot in the old-school film camp (35mm Nikons!), one foot in digital technology (circa 2009 or so), trying to hone in on a comfortable process that balances what I can afford with what I want to do. And I’m about burnt-out.
The reason I was a black and white film photography guy for many years was not only because I loved black and white. It’s because I could always find a black and white darkroom to work in, and have full control over my images. When digital arrived, I embraced color photography because I now had full control with Photoshop and an Epson printer. I did a lot with a 6-megapixel camera. I don’t think anyone would know, upon viewing a print, what camera I used, and that was the point.
But when you mingle with other photographers, or read photo blogs or magazines, you quickly feel less than adequate if you haven’t kept up with technology. Even if it doesn’t matter to the images you produce. I’ve been caught up in that fog for too long, and feel that I’ve come to resolution. I’m back to digital, using my outmoded technology, and I’ll struggle along happily. Unless I win the lottery, in which case, I’m on the elevator to the top floor, laughing at YOU!
I need to get back to projects, thinking about the image, not the camera. It’s better when I have the technology down-pat, not thinking or stressing about it. Just photographing and finding what I want to find through image-making. I used to work that way, but stumbled. I think I’m back on my feet again, eager to go.